Step-father is a genius, I can't get enough from him.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?list=PLOREFc4dzydf-yO5uDhKbKltW0gminExI¶ms=OAFIAVgR&v=SeAAi7jWOl8&mode=NORMAL

http://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLspeOI0YmcdNMoB-3XSgw0D5psTzmBFxS

Why must I be stripped of happiness once again. It's bad enough he put me through a mental school program that did literally nothing for me. It's bad enough he scared off my only 3-4 friends from my limited time there. It's bad enough I don't even have a phone, license, or a full-time job. He keeps threatening to kick me out of the house if I dont leave on my own. How can I? He takes from me a full on paycheck as rent. and I only get 2 per month. (264.60 on average)

mmmrrrrr.... If I had a way to record his behavior I seriously would. even if it got used against me. This is going to suck.


Look at the bottom of the site. that's my timer. its either then or the end of the month. I hate my step-father to such a degree its not even funny. This irl thing... he screwed me over. either that or the education sucked so hardcore that I'm just dumb. fml.

bright side... er. I dont see any.

oh here's another thing. Because I dont have a license he keeps telling me go get one. whenever I ask for a ride to go get one, he never does it. Also, whenever he drives to me to work, he says im taxing on him, practically. Like I don't appreciate it. I'm forced to and nis own attitude of constant yelling at me just makes me not. 90% of the time he talks to me is via a loud and demanding voice. Like I'm a threat or something. (I can record using my 3ds, but the sites crash whenever I manage to upload.)

if I even get a license getting a car/car insurance would drain the rest of my pay. 2 part times and a seasonal just doesnt cut it. I dont understand why my mother is so content around him. She doesnt even have a job.

I'm more or less looking blindly at life itself. I have no idea what to do and honestly I'm to much of a wimp to just leave. I have no idea of what to do. screw him, screw outside, screw myself. goodbye. I dont know when I may pop up again. I don't want to give up, its places like this that make me happy. If I even tried to explain that to him, my only expectated reaction would be him taking everyone of my little online toys and throwing them in the dump. Its always the worst reaction from him. He practically hates seeing me on any electronic. I'd take an online job if I could. heck I actually know how to do that youtube thing. editing videos, that sort of thing. not hard, at all. Just no computer, not like it'll last with him around. He thinks im weird whenever I'm talking through the voice-chat for some of the online games (overwatch) i even explained it to him. multiple times.

I'd ask for advice but im pretty sure I wont be able to do it in the way anyone would give. They'd practically need to be with me in order for it to actually work. I'd legitimately pay someone to visit this place or take me away. It's that bad. Aspergers from birth, apathetic because of him. best gift ever. havent shed a tear since I was 8.