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| Subject: This is about College, but it's in no way a goodbye Sun Jul 13, 2014 4:20 pm | |
| So, college.
I'm a month away from it. And I think it's about time I address the HUGE elephant in the chat room right now, because I'll be honest, I don't need the big block of stress from this issue sitting in my gut, weighing me down.
Guys, it's literally my dream to go to college. It's my gateway to a better life in the future. It's my oyster. And it's not going to come to me on a silver platter. It's my experience, and I have to be the one who makes it. Nobody else can. Only me. I still have to do a lot of things, like find myself and learn how to like myself for who I am. Then I move on to finding myself a good boyfriend /SHOT
But honestly, these things are going to take lots of time. Time I can't also be spending here. It's hard, but it's the truth. You all can see that I'm not on as often anymore, which is because from here on out I'm never going to have the option of spending the whole day with you guys.
By the way, I am aware that there are those of you who want me stripped of my title because I can't be on and active like Kat or Des. I'm fine with that. Yeah, I'm not the best or most active admin. I'm out of practice. I'm rather shoddy. But I'm still here. And I'm still going to be here. It doesn't really matter to me whether I have a red name or a blue name, I'm still gonna do what I can when I can do it. Stripping me of admin status just means I can't give the newbies their poke anymore.
So, what does me going to college mean?
It means you guys have a special reservation in my daily planner. I will reserve time for you guys. Some days it might only be one hour. Others it might be more than three. But I really have to be careful. My grades in high school were a god-awful mix of A's and D's because I got complacent and ended up letting things that shouldn't be in control control my life. From schoolwork to campus involvement to protecting myself from the undesirable and dangerous underbelly of campus life, I might have days where I only have a half an hour to spare, and I might need that half an hour for something like counseling. ADHD is a very real learning disorder (especially when, y'know, it's diagnosed and you have a special ADHD counselor just to get you through high school with a 3.0 average) and it likes to stick it's ugly head into every nook and cranny of my life, meaning my college experience is EXTREMELY susceptible.
Also, I'm a going to be a loooooooooooong way from home. LOOOOOONG way. To put it in perspective for you all for those of you who weren't aware, it's more than 15 hours from my home to my college. There's no turning back once I leave. My only hope of seeing my family in person is hopefully making a standby flight during holidays. This means I have nowhere to go if I act like a lackidaisy moron in college; I'll be stuck in a faraway place with nowhere to go until somebody works up the gas money to drive 15 hours to get me. (Considering how much debt my tuition is going to put me and my family in, that's going to be hard. Architecture school takes a minimum of 5 1/2 years to complete when you go for a masters, and on top of that I'm probs going for the full 6 in order to be fully prepared for the eIGHT TESTS OF DoOoOoOoOoOoOoM. 6 years requires lots of mulah, if you catch my cold. Achoo.)
To wrap all this up, I'm not going away. I'm just getting ready to dive into life. I need to be involved in my life in order to be able to take chances and find what's best for myself. Being the introverted homebody that I was in high school won't work (at least not in a good, healthy way) in college, and I need to get myself into the practice of opening up to the world outside my existing communities. I will never, EVER forget about you guys. I just have to put more of myself in other places. I need to really emotionally plant myself in this new community commonly called college (or University if you're British/European. Holla at my girl Des/Solilo.)
There, my loose ends are tied up. That feels so much better.
To all of you as I pack up the junk in my room, cheers. Here goes absolutely f***ing nothing. |'D
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Posts : 5153 Poké : 290 Join date : 2012-07-23 Location : Jabberwock Island
| Subject: Re: This is about College, but it's in no way a goodbye Sun Jul 13, 2014 4:27 pm | |
| Good luck with all your future endeavours Foxeh! I hope you do the absolute best you can at Uni and don't worry we'll all still be here if you need people to talk to or just wanna hang out!
If you're as awesome in real life as you are here i'm sure everyone will love you so you shouldn't worry too much about opening up to others :3 Everyone always says Uni is like the best days of their life though so i'm sure you'll have lots of awesome times and memories in those 6 years you spend there :D | |
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